I've had this blog up and running a year this month (Sept 30 2012 blog)
I was getting ready to go in for my lap band surgery the following month. I was super excited to lose the weight and be back to my skinny self. Thinking I would never have a "fat holiday" again, no more worries about pictures being taken of me.
Well, I have lost some weight (nearly 40 lbs) but have not lost any more since Feb. , that is 7 months of sitting at the same place on the scale. It's my fault, I don't eat right, I don't exercise like I should. I'm not disgusted at my pictures any more (for the most part) but I'm also not where I wanted to be a year later. I wanted to be down 100 lbs. I still think I'll get there, it is just going to take a lot more than I'm giving now.
With the 40 pounds down I can now sit Indian style (my legs crossed) , I don't worry about seat belts not fitting on plane trips, roller coasters, etc. I don't worry that my beach chair will break under my weight.
I feel "noticed" again and not invisible. I don't feel the need to run to the scale every day worrying that the weight will all just appear back. I can shop in regular stores again and sometimes even find things that fit ..and not just in the big women s section.
I have not been recording in this blog or doing the videos that I started with..I think about them but don't seem to find the time or motivation to do them. Not sure anyone really reads this or cares anyway. It's mainly for me , another journal of sorts to record what I've done, what I'm doing and what I am telling myself to do in the future :)
Hey Holly - great post. Although I have not had band surgery, I can relate to everything you wrote here: the frustration of running in the sand and ending up where you started. The anguish of not seeing results of a goal and the tunnel that gets longer and longer. I really encourage you to keep it going and keep letting us know how it's going. My good friend had the surgery and it is defiantly a SLOW burn. When she had a dull in the loss, she adjusted her diet to eat more food, more often, but healthy of course - high protein. I'm sure you've heard that already.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, my frustration is with marketing my book - it takes endless patience and sometimes I think I just crazy.
Have a great fall. Thanks for the post that lets me know we all have our mountains that we’re climbing.
-Buffi
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