Tuesday, January 22, 2013


I am back home from TN. and happy to say down another pound! I started in October at 234 and this morning I am at 202! It's taking me longer to reach 199 than I thought it would but I did my math this morning and to get to my over all goal by my one year anniversary I only need to lose 2 lbs a week...very doable! And not only doable but I will most likely meet my goal ahead of schedule!! Yay!!!

This latest loss could be water weight thou...in tears! :( What an emotional trip this was.
My sweet dad always worrying about everyone else, had his hospice nurse send me some books so when I got home last night they were in my mail box.."When a loved one is suffering a difficult death", Facing Cancer as a family, Grieving the loss of your parent, Losing your dad, and What's really normal when you're grieving" ...heck just the names of the books have me in tears! I have not opened them yet but do plan on having a look since he went to the trouble of having them sent to me.  I think I need one on how not to kill the family around me that isn't grieving in the way I think they should...maybe time for more therapy , eh? FOR ME

Anyway....I'm dragging butt today but trying to get in gear to make it back to work at a reasonable hour. The fur children didn't want to stop snuggling this morning...DJ was even sharing my pillow with me, what a sweetie!

Keep smiling and hug your loved ones today! xoxoxo

Checking out Facebook with my dad 

Friday, January 18, 2013

Visit with Dad Jan 2013

Fun times in TN. We got here last night to snow covered roads..it's beautiful!!! My dad has a big chair , i think it's called a chair and half, that we fit in nicely together! 

Thursday, January 17, 2013


Hello! It's 3:45 in the morning and we are getting ready to leave for TN in a little bit. I have been too wired to sleep.(the reason for the lovely picture lol)
 I think Vic got about 5 hours of sleep. She's up putting together a roast in the crock pot for Victors dinner tonight.

We are pretty well packed, I'll pack up my lap top last. We had planned to head out at 5am but I think it is going to be a little earlier. I've seen some friends posts on facebook that there may be snow ahead on our trip..that would be really cool, it's been years since I've seen any snow. I'm just praying for safe, accident free travels!

Eating was a little easier yesterday. The only thing I had a hard time keeping down was some shredded chicken that Vic brought me for lunch. When I got home I made a can of soup and had no issues with that! :) I was down a tad more on the scale today so I can now officially say I've lost 30 pounds! Yay!

Depending on the internet speed/connection I'll try and blog from dads house. I know over thanksgiving I had issues with uploading pictures or videos.
I'd love to get some videos of him and I together, maybe I'll try and get that to happen with Vic's help.

Until next time...xoxox

Tuesday, January 15, 2013


Tomorrow is the day my dad predicted I'd be at 199 pounds. I'm thinking that I am not going to make goal..I'm at 204 today :(

Today is my three month anniversary from having the surgery. I've lost almost 30 pounds..like 6 ounces away from saying 30 pounds. I'm pretty happy with that but will be much happier when I can say I've   reached my goal and now weight 125 pounds. That is so like me..wanting the reward without doing the work.

I saw on facebook that one girl rewarded herself with a pink ipod for making it to onederland..Why didn't I think of that? What should I reward myself with? I'm planning on new clothes but I don't want to do that until I'm much further along..so for now I'm in baggy pants..i may have to break down and get littler (is that a word?) underwear thou...nothing says sexy like big ole granny panties eh?

I've had some issues eating since this last fill. Last night I couldn't even keep jello down. I went out to eat with Vic and Victor and spent most of the meal thinking about a nice way to stay in the bathroom. I won't even tell you about the ride home...:(  It's time to just eat a bite or two off Vic's plate instead of ordering my own meals.

I'm super crabby too...like ready to kill someone (yes I have someone in mind) crabby..I think it has more to do with feeling out of control regarding my dad thou and not so much anything else. I hope by being up there with him I'll calm down some.

It sucks not to be able to turn to comfort foods when you need them to comfort you. :) Looks like a good time to take up running or something.  I saw some really cute pink running shoes on someones facebook page....may have to look into that.

Enough rambling. Still no video or pictures...I spent the day cleaning house and even thou it's 6pm I'm still in jammies...and nothing cute believe me...or I'd throw a picture up here. My hair isn't really cooperating with me either...it's falling out and is looking dry and frizzy. I bought new products last time I had it cut but I'm just not feeling it...maybe I should reward myself with a pretty wig..:)

Wow tonights post really sounds like a pity party...sorry about that. Until later..xoxox

Monday, January 14, 2013


Happy Monday!

My last fill is doing what it is suppose to do. I finally have restriction. I have a total of 4cc's in my lap band. I had an uncomfortable feeling with almost everything I ate this weekend. It's going to take some getting used to but I'm happy about it because it will help the weight come off faster! :)  I've really geared up to hopefully get to goal by my one year anniversary date (Oct. 15), for a few different reasons. The main one is that I will most likely be losing my insurance at the end of the year and I really want to get any fills and surgeries out of the way before it all goes away. Added motivation is a good thing :)

Hopefully I can be strong with all of the emotional stuff going on. I'm traveling to TN to see my dad this week. He's already getting more tired than even at Christmas :( I'm so not ready for this adventure with him.

I learned this morning of a dear friend that passed from lung cancer. He only found out about it Jan 7. I don't know but I kind of think if I had to go I'd like to make it fast like that. With that being said I would not have changed a thing having the last year with dad. This will make my fifth trip in total up to see him I think...I will not have any regrets ...only saddness that he will be taken from me. The only thing that brings me some comfort is knowing that when it's my time to go he will be the one coming to show me the ropes.

I've got a ton to do before our trip to Tn...gotta keep this short today.


Thursday, January 10, 2013

1-10-13 Second Fill

I had my second fill today, now I have 4cc's in my band. The doctor told me that so far it's been all me. The band doesnt actually start working until 4-8cc's. Yay me! :) I was only down five pounds since my last doctors visit six weeks ago so hopefully now with a tighter band the weight will come off in bigger numbers!

Craziness at work has kicked in with our season starting January 1st. With what we've seen so far I have a feeling it will be a long stressful season..holding out hope that I'm wrong.

I am going to fit in a visit to dad this month. Vic and I are planning on taking a weekend and driving up to spend some time with him before it gets too crazy. I need some daddy time! :)

Next Wednesday is the day my dad told me I'd be down to 199...I sure hope he's right but it isn't looking that way today...I think I'll start walking again after work..the dogs will enjoy that too!

Anyway...the phones are ringing..gotta run. Will try and get a video up this week, I know I've been slacking but just have not found the right head space lately.


Monday, January 7, 2013


Happy Rainy Monday !

We are up early and headed to the dr. to have Vics knee looked at and then off to start our busy week.

I hope that everyone had a good weekend and will make the most out of today and everyday..that is something I am really trying to do this year.

The scale was not my friend this morning...showing me up two pounds since yesterday but I'm not worried because it tends to jump a few pounds in either direction from day to day.. I could not sleep this morning and my mind was just calculating how much I need to lose to reach my goal by my one year surgery date (Oct 15 2013) I only need to lose like 8 lbs a month and I'll be there! I can do this!! And then maybe get some plastic surgery by the end of the year to tuck away some of the loose skin I'll have :) How's that for thinking ahead?

Gotta run for now...Have a great Monday !

Sunday, January 6, 2013


Happy Sunday (see my little boy dexter on top of the sofa behind me?)
I've been home working on 1099's for our vendors ..feeling very productive.

I'm happy with what I've lost so far (28 lbs) but I've been craving sweets like crazy. I did pick up some adtkins peanut butter cups and that helps..as well as sugar free jello , sugar free fudge bars, etc.

My sister gave me a bunch of clothes and I've been doing laundry and trying things on today...happy to be fitting in smaller sizes! It's hard because I see myself one way and then will see a picture and realize I'm not nearly as small as I feel. I'll get there though! :)

Had a very nice weekend....Feeling blessed and trying to keep the sad thoughts away.

Thursday, January 3, 2013


I finally took back off the couple of pounds I gained over the holidays! Yay me!! I got on the scale today and it was down 28.2 pounds now from when I started in October. I'll take that :)

This is my first day back to work since last Friday. I know I have a pile waiting for me but I like those kind of days because I'll be busy and the day will fly by.

I go in next Thursday to see my doctor again. I'm guessing I will get another fill. Vic sees my orthopedic surgeon that did my hip replacements on Monday to have a look at her knee. Maybe by the end of 2013 we will be fit and have all of our parts working like we are 20 again! lol

We have scheduled a cruise for our October birthdays this year. I'm pretty exciting thinking that by then I'll be down a significant amount of weight and can do more. The last cruise we went on in 2010 I didn't even put my swimsuit on...a big difference from cruises past when I spent so much time by the pools.

I hope that you all have a wonderful day and are started off on a better 2013.